Quick rant...
Lately I've been feeling very blah. I haven't been eating like I should or working out so I know that is playing a huge part. Also being a new mom is really hard work. I just feel mentally and physically exhausted. Lawson is still waking up once during the night so that has my sleep pattern all off. Adam and I have our good days and not-so-good days, just being honest. I've got to find some balance.
I know that God is far bigger than my little problems. I've got to trust him daily and be renewed by him daily. God is so good and wants the best for me. I've got to get over myself, which come to find out is rather hard. I'm reminded often of Luke 9:23..."If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me." This is actually a key verse we are studying during our new series at Church. God is never subtle with me, there is always a recurring scripture when he is trying to get my attention. Very thankful for that. I've got to start denying myself. Mike preached a great sermon on Sunday which of course included Luke 9:23. He made a great point that everything we want takes a backseat to ANYTHING God wants. He challenged us to take one area where we deny God access and choose instead to deny our self. I'm taking the step to read the word daily, D-A-I-L-Y (yes, even weekends).
Mike also made a great point that we shouldn't be harmless with our faith. Meaning go public, people need to know about our faith (which is one reason I'm sharing this). During this series we are challenged to carry a cross, literally carry a cross on our back for 40 yards 3 or more times a week. Carrying the cross allows us time to deny ourselves, talk with God and go public with our faith. To be totally honest when Mike first suggested this, I immediately thought, no way not going to do that. Monday morning during my quiet time while I was praying I asked God if he wanted me to participate. I told God all the reasons I didn't need to do it and then God made it clear that I was not denying myself and I was making this all about ME. So we went and carried the cross. It felt a little awkward but it was so good to obey and take up the cross and follow my father.
To help me stay in the word daily I'm starting to read along with 1chapteraday.com. I saw this a couple of weeks ago on facebook and felt the tug to start reading along but didn't. It's written by one of the pastors at our Church, Bruce Ammons, who is one cool guy. I'm going to start today reading one chapter daily. I look forward to having some commentary from a pastor I know and trust. I would love it if you would read along with me. Today's reading is from Genesis 43.
Lastly, tomorrow is Lawson's 6 month apt please pray that he doesn't have any pain and doesn't get sick from the shots.
Good night and sleep tight!
Lotts of love,
tiffnie
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