The past few months I've been really insecure, lacking self confidence and just down right needy. I've never really dealt with these emotions before. I mean sure I would have my days but that's just it, it was days. Not weeks which have turned into months and I'm afraid if I don't get this bull by the horns it's gonna be years. Years wasted. I can't be the only person that has ever dealt with this horrible lack of whatever it is.
Trust me I know that there are way worse things going on in the world and this is super minute. However it's where I'm at and I need to figure out how to get my zeal for life back.
I love being a mommy, I really do so don't hear me say otherwise. I just feel like I've lost myself and I'm starting to hid behind being a mommy.
With all of that being said I want to blog my journey. I want to look back and see this pit God has dug me out of filled with dirt and a beautiful oak growing out of what was once a dark self-righteous hole. I envision my family standing with our Father on top having conquered it, looking back only to see that God does love us and will give us the strength to conquer anything as long as he is our heart.
As I walk with Him daily I pray that I don't lose sight of what the Lord has laid before me, I pray he will change my heart and fill me during the days that I struggle. I'm so thankful to have a husband who no matter what state I'm in, always sees beauty, loves me, and encourages me to be a loving wife, mother, friend and follower.
I hope I can stick with blogging through this journey, your prayers and encouragement will help me so much!
My goals are to love my Father, baby and husband with ALL my heart.
Change the way I speak about myself.
Honestly accept compliments.
Speak positive declarations over myself:
*I am confident.
*I am disciplined spirit, soul and body.
*I am highly focused.
*I am creative.
*I am loved.
*I am highly favored with God and men.
Speak God's word over myself. "I have chosen you and have not cast you away. Fear not, for I am with you: be not dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you. I will hold you with My righteous right hand" (Is. 41:9-10). Eat 1700 calories on average. Work out for 30-45 minutes 3-4 times per week. Drink water.
"You will never change your life until you change something you do daily"
-John Maxwell
4 comments:
compliments you have to accept: I think you are beautiful! Always have - since before I got to know you - now that I do know you I'm overwhelmed! I love how open, honest, and accepting you are,too! Your constant pursuit of God's will and direction for your life inspires me!
This decision to be proactive in defining how you want your life and behavior to be is great! I'll be harassing you about keeping up with blogging :)
Awe thanks Jess!! Made my day and I'm drinking up that compliment :)
I welcome all harassment, hopefully I won't need it but that's yet to be seen!
Tiffnie you are a breath of fresh air. Having the courage to step out and be real is not easy. But refusing to stay locked up in the lies and deception already makes you an overcomer. Jeremiah 29:13 changed my life and I will be praying it over you. May the Lord use you to be the new beginning of hope for so many other women, whatever stage or season in life they are at. It really is time for us to rise up and be real, honest and authentic Jesus followers. Nothing shines Jesus more than an awakened heart. Thank you for your willingness to be transparent and vulnerable.
I love that, "an awakened heart". Thank you for your encouragement, it really spoke to my heart. I know this journey is going to be tough but as long as I stick with the Lord daily I know I will overcome. I agree, I'm so sick and tired of hiding my struggles and pretending to have it all together. It's important to be real, open and honest so God can use of battles to be a light for others.
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