Overwhelmed by you!

I can't even begin to tell you how overwhelmed I am with everyone's encouragement. The emails, FB posts, FB messages and texts meant so much to me and I'm seriously overwhelmed with your out pouring of love and honesty.

This is going to be a daily battle and your prayers will help me battle my mind and daily struggles.

I was so hesitant to blog about this journey because to be honest with you I don't want to be "that girl" that has self esteem issues and of course fear of failure.  However I know God wants to me to do this and be very open and honest.  I will try my hardest.

When I read yesterday's blog I know those were God's words not mine.  I'm sure throughout this journey it will be clear when it's me writing and when it's God.  Forgive me for the days when it's all about me...

So my 3 day journey...Monday and Tuesday were so good, I spoke truth, ate well, drank plenty of water and exercised.  Today different story.  Lawson has been sick and I think it finally got me.  My throat is super inflamed, horrible cough and really lethargic.  Went to the doc and they gave me a cough syrup with hydrocodine in it, WOW, I think it made my feel even worse.  Yea the cough is gone but geez I feel pretty loopy.  I also think these nights of broken sleep are starting to get the best of me.  Lawson has been waking up around 3am and if I don't get to bed till 11ish it makes for a rough night.  After I finish this blog I'm hitting the sack with the house a total disaster :/

Even though today was a bad day, I ate unhealthy, didn't exercise, drank more diet coke then water and just felt blah.  Tomorrow is a new day and I refuse to give into my old ways!  I'm gonna make mistakes and have bad days, fact.

"But one thing I do:  Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus" (Phil. 3:13-14 NIV)

Good night friends and thank you again for being YOU, real, honest and encouraging YOU!

Lotts of love,
Tiff

Let's get real, for realz...

I'm feeling like it's time to get real. It's time to take some real life struggles and deal with them. How many times do I need to have myself a dang pity party, seriously?

The past few months I've been really insecure, lacking self confidence and just down right needy. I've never really dealt with these emotions before. I mean sure I would have my days but that's just it, it was days. Not weeks which have turned into months and I'm afraid if I don't get this bull by the horns it's gonna be years. Years wasted. I can't be the only person that has ever dealt with this horrible lack of whatever it is.

Trust me I know that there are way worse things going on in the world and this is super minute. However it's where I'm at and I need to figure out how to get my zeal for life back.

I love being a mommy, I really do so don't hear me say otherwise. I just feel like I've lost myself and I'm starting to hid behind being a mommy.

With all of that being said I want to blog my journey. I want to look back and see this pit God has dug me out of filled with dirt and a beautiful oak growing out of what was once a dark self-righteous hole. I envision my family standing with our Father on top having conquered it, looking back only to see that God does love us and will give us the strength to conquer anything as long as he is our heart.

As I walk with Him daily I pray that I don't lose sight of what the Lord has laid before me, I pray he will change my heart and fill me during the days that I struggle. I'm so thankful to have a husband who no matter what state I'm in, always sees beauty, loves me, and encourages me to be a loving wife, mother, friend and follower.

I hope I can stick with blogging through this journey, your prayers and encouragement will help me so much!

My goals are to love my Father, baby and husband with ALL my heart.
Change the way I speak about myself.
Honestly accept compliments.
Speak positive declarations over myself:
*I am confident.
*I am disciplined spirit, soul and body.
*I am highly focused.
*I am creative.
*I am loved.
*I am highly favored with God and men.
Speak God's word over myself. "I have chosen you and have not cast you away. Fear not, for I am with you: be not dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you. I will hold you with My righteous right hand" (Is. 41:9-10). Eat 1700 calories on average. Work out for 30-45 minutes 3-4 times per week. Drink water.

"You will never change your life until you change something you do daily"
-John Maxwell